Saturday, December 26, 2015

been a while since I wrote a dream post.

Angie and I were sneaking around a big old house.  I thin it was supposed to be haunted.  I think . . we saw something either definitely scary or definitely haunted, and then we got out and drove to another place where angie knew someone who would be able to help?

At this new house I sort of just followed her lead.  She opened the door and walked in.  I think maybe we knocked or rang the doorbell, but I think I head voices.  Angie was faster than me.  I might have been distracted by something.  But she went in and went down some stairs.  the house or at least the basement was really pretty big.  IT was well lit and I had this.  very, hippyish feel to it.  I remember looking in one wrong room with an older person in it and apologized saying I was looking for my cousin.
Eventually I found her.. but we went somewhere else.  I am not sure if we went through a portal, or stairs or what but it was very . . cloudy, and .. more surreal.  We were in a place that was like walking on clouds.  There were other . . creatures and people there.  There was a weird.  system ? set up whee there was a portal and sometimes. . dark things came out of it. and sometimes. . people came out.  there was a kind of balance between dark and light.  

Much of the dream was themed around being somewhere I wasn't quite supposed to be.  Not because it was necessarily against the law, but more that I was in someone else's place without permission. Also Angie was the knowledgeable one, but not always. . extremely knowledgable.  I spent most of the dream following her around, or looking for her.

I know there were many details in every location I can't quite remember.  I remember being scared in the ..haunted house.  and I remember feeling like I was not trespassing, but moving through someone else's house without permission, in the 2nd house, and I remember being a stranger in a weird magical . . land in the cloud place.  

I remember the clouds there being fluffy, almost warm, and shapeable.  and I do remember talking to people and creatures in the cloud place.  So much more I can't quite remember.

Bryan K. 

Wednesday, May 13, 2015

This morning's Dream

All I remember is that I was in a house that was not one I recognized.  My sister and my parents were there.  Something was happening, I feel like it might have been kinda scary, but maybe not.  I was surprised that I remembered so much, and I should have written it down right away.  well now I'd better get to sleep.  hopefully I remember more tomorrow.

Sunday, May 3, 2015

action movie dream

So I had a dream this morning that felt like I was the main character in the middle of an action movie.  I was in a huge building and moving around a large .. chasam, like area.  It was like those buildings, like a hotel or something with offices that had a big open space from the first floor to the top, but I was so high up I couldn't really see the bottom.  I was near the top and the walkways were more like ledges without railings.

I had handcuffs on that I could get out of anytime I wanted, and I was in trouble for doing something wrong, like arresting the bad guy the wrong way.  Possibly there was something about the situation that the law didn't believe me about.  I was either by myself, or people in charge had to leave to handle some kind of emergency.  I was walking around the ledge, crossed the gap, and then down some stairs on my way somewhere.  Then I suddenly realized that the bad guy was loose.

I took the handcuffs off and started going back up the way I came.  I got to the top of the other side and somehow I saw the bad guy in just the perfect place below me. I was able to sneak up on him and kick him in the back to knock him off the ledge.  Unfortunately I only knocked him down a floor or so.  I was trying to see if he was hurt or dead or whatever when I woke up.

yup.  writing before bed works.  I don't think I spent as much time imagining going through the new house as I wanted.  I'll try and do that tonight.

See ya.

trouble sleeping so I might as well write

My nose is stuffed up a bit so that it's a little hard to breath through my nose and I don know if I'm tense but I'm having trouble relaxing to sleep.

so I thought I'd try typing a bit.  I thought maybe I'd encourage lucid dreaming by writing about my day.  maybe I'll at least remember my dreams.

so the day went pretty well over all.  We had a homebuyer's class that went from 9 a.m. to 1:30pm  It was supposed to go to 2, but got out a bit early.  They also bought us lunch.  There were only 9 of us in the class, and the instructor was pretty good.  There was a lot of material that everyone in the class had already lived through.  I think everyone was going to the class to satisfy a requirement of a grant/loan deal and had already found a house and had a closing date.  It was a good class.

It was sort of both reassuring and. . nervousness inducing at the same time, but not too much nervousness.

When we got home, we went for a walk, and then both took naps on the couches sort of spontaneously.  I'd been looking forward to a "movie night" but Billy was too tired to really enjoy one so we put it off.  It was good for me though because I got some useful stuff done for my juries.  I'm still not working on them enough.  I was, however disappointed and had some of my crazy "jarring" effect  get to me.  It was probably for the best anyway.

After I worked on my Juries until around 8:30, I came downstairs and had ice cream while Billy watched youtube DIY woodworking shows.   He went to bed and I came up to give him a leg massage because he said his legs were aching.  Then I played Hearthstone until I tried to sleep a bit after 1. . maybe 1:30. I did get Natalie to lay in bed with us until I got up because I wasn't breathing through my nose well and I couldn't relax.

NOw it's almost 3 and if I still can't relax when I go back up I'll come down and try some alcohol.  I'm planning on picturing myself flying around or walking around our new house and see if I can make myself dream about it.

o.k. now I sleep.  good night/morning.

Thursday, March 12, 2015


The day.. Just feels like it happened so fast. Work continued being crazy. Felt like constant phone calls. Got into a disagreement on fb. My dislike of restaurant tippng and the example I found of a different, arguably better way got interpreted as an attack on a friend's income. At least he seemed willing to discuss rather than yell. Though I apologized for the offence and never got a response. Not sure if he saw it. I'll avoid the subject in the future. Had a union meeting tonight. It was really hot in the. Meeting room.

Going to see some houses rinirris

Monday, March 9, 2015

quick day

     I'm about to go to sleep. . and I feel I probably didn't do enough useful today.  The day started and it was difficult to get out of bed.  But I did and I got a ride one more time.  I really really hope my bike is still good to ride tomorrow.  It was last time I checked. I got a ride because I was worried about random snow or ice not quite melted in the morning.

     The day was mostly uneventful, though I made sure to go for a 30 min walk at lunch so that I could make my gym pact. I've apparently been penalized a few times and hadn't realized it because it had come out of my account that I almost never check. . I lucked out in figuring it out finally because I just barely avoided overdrawing.  I've now, just a minute ago, cashed out over $15 to go into the account that I had previously been penalized in.

     The other interesting things while at work included:  talking to a girl named Cashe (pronounced Cash-ay), being told by a college friend that I was the reason they were not homophobic, and signing up for a 3d printing class tomorrow.  The newsletter that talked about the classes only came out today and they filled up really fast.  Tomorrow was the only day I could do.  Also I actually got feedback from my adviser about my Jury writing. yay.  now I need to slack less for schoolwork

    After work I got a ride home and Billy had a headache.  We had plans to meet up with another college friend for dinner.  We went to Crane Alley and a 4th person joined us that I hadn't seen in probably 7 years or so. at least.  It was a good dinner and Billy seemed to enjoy himself. . except for the headache.  When we got home he pretty much went right to bed.  I went out to get him some Aleve and he took it and stayed in bed.

     I transcribed my audio feedback from my advisor, and took a shower, after cleaning the cat litter box.  Now I am going to bed.

Pleasant dreams.


Thursday, March 5, 2015

well apparently I'm tired but I still don't want to sleep.

     I remembered a dream this morning.  yay.  But you saw that.  Today I woke up, had Bulletproof coffee, got my lunch together and got picked up by Stephanie.  Got to work, and was fairly busy till the end.  I expected to get an email today about my pre approval letter for our mortgage for the house we are going to get, but so far nothing.  If I don't get it tomorrow I'll call.

     I talked to Billy over lunch though it was a bit loud.  I wish I had an office I could hide in and eat with the door shut and the light out for lunch. Andrea wasn't there today so I had to get coey to give me a ride home.  Billy cooked a nice dinner of chicken and vegetables from a paleo web site.  I think he's going to get some recipes from Stephanie also. We also talked through some more house stuff.  I feel like if we were married, there wouldn't be an issue, and it would probably all just be jointly done.  But as it was pointed out to me, it is probably a good idea to have a plan, at least talked about how things might get divided up if we ever broke up.  We need to find out how putting a name on a deed works and what the various outcomes might be in different situations.  Ultimately if he's paying for half of everything, even if his name isn't on the mortgage, he'll want to, and deserves to get equity out of it if we ever sell it or if we break up.  I'm not sure what we'll do yet if we break up and say, I still want to live in the house.  Course if I got the house, I'd have to have a roommate no matter what, except if I somehow get an amazing much better paying job before then.  So it's good we are talking about it.

     Also, apparently if we get married it will be when I pop the question.  He's probably good for it anytime I'm ready.  Marriage is so . . strange.  I feel like my perception of when one proposes.. has been skewed by movies and popular media.  but we'll see.  There will be a point that I'll decide I need to make it happen, I'm sure.

anyway. . After dinner, I played Nobils.  It was a really good game,.. and I think we are almost done with this one.  Things are really getting intense.  Then I took a nice hot shower, and got ready for bed pretty much.  . this is is part of getting ready for bed.

now good night and pleasant dreams. :)

Dream : leaving

I  know there was more.. But I remember I was leaving a city in the way home. Kelly was there. And I know got r me money was tight and I almost had trouble getting a  ticket. I had a spontaneous adventure feeling. I  remember walking outside, dodging traffic with the group on the way to a train station. Kind of like Chicago. I remember not finding the door to GO in station till it was pointed out to me.

That's all for now.

Monday, March 2, 2015

too tired to write much. . I got up, went to work.  ate great food that billy made.  worked on some school work. and then went sledding with Audra and Cat.  then came home, showered and sat in a hot bath and then played Godus.  now sleeping

Tiny fragments

All I'm getting so far is bits about Mr Argent from teen wolf. I'll write more later if I remember more.

Sunday, March 1, 2015

pre bed night 2

     So another thing that may help me dream more or remember them better, might be  getting more sleep.  I mean if I go to bed sooner and I feel like I don't have to pull myself out of bed with as much difficulty I may be able to concentrate on remembering better.  I remembered a dream this morning. . but it was weird, because when it all came to me. . it almost seemed like a story that I'd read instead of a dream I actually remembered having.

     Anyway, the events of today started with getting up around 10a.m. to my wonderful boyfriend telling me that breakfast was on the way.  I eventually pulled myself together and noticed I'd missed some calls from my parents. . there were way early.  One was even before 9 a.m. on a sunday. :)  who gets up that early. . on purpose.. .  Oh I should mention that I woke up at some point way early casue the cat was bothering billy.  I took her downstairs but sort of played wither her a bit and then fell asleep on the couch.. or maybe it was the loveseat.  He came down and apparently went to sleep on the couch and the cute kitteh curled up on him.   I went back to bed upstairs. . and then we jump to breakfast being ready.

     I spent a few minutes writing down the dream, and then used the rest room and got dressed.  After breakfast of egg muffins and coffee, I started doing the dishes and called mom and dad back on my phone.  They were having trouble getting their laptop to have an extended screen on their big t.v.  I had them switch to doing a hangout with me from that computer and I used the remote desktop feature to  fix first their sound and microphone.. then show them how to change the way the monitors were set up by going to the resolution screen.

     Then I got distracted trying to explain why homosexual relationships were not really that different than heterosexual ones.  I am not sure I'll ever get through to this guy.  His main argument was that because men and women were fundamentally different. . the relationship had to be fundamentally different between same or different sex couples.  I'm of the opinion that since men and women can both contribute in most of the same ways to relationships and because all women do not contribute to relationships the same, and all men do not.. then it's really that there is a certain. . sort of sum of things that a good relationship must consist of, and both men and women can make up that sum in different and various forms. Anyway, I have a feeling that I'm not going to make dent with this guy, but at least he's civil.

     So then at 2 I played DnD with Alvin and Co.  It went pretty well though we made it a 2 parter.  I played that till 6, and then discussed some reorganization that might happen for another 20 minutes.  Then I got bundled up, shoveled around / out the car and went to pick up some forzen pizza's for dinner.  We ended up splitting one and having some cheese sticks.

     Billy was pretty tired after dinner and didn't stay up very much later.  He went to bed between 8 and 9.  Our sheets needed washing so, I washed them while he slept in the spare bedroom.  Stuff took forever to dry so I layed on the couch with the kitteh working on schoolwork as well as watching more Teenwolf.  (if I really believed very many people read this I might be slightly embarrassed about watching that :))

     I was actually tired as well. . and now that the bed is made I'm crashing. . I almost went to bed sooner but then remembered I needed to write this.  also there was a tower defense game on that needed playing. :)

Good night.

Today's dreams

So I woke up twice this morning, and remember dreaming both times, but.. I only remember one dream very clearly. There was some kind of alien invasion.. I think I was at a school. Humans were made into obedient unquestioning slaves.. Don't something. We had a couple of handlers that were possibly sympathetic. My friends and I found out that the project the aliens had us doing was bring scrapped because it wasn't useful to the aliens anymore and that meant that they were going to kill every one, including the two handlers. There was one male and one female. I watched the male get struck down.. And at the last minute lent him my soul.. Or possibly life.. And weird time stuff happened and he was able to act to stop the aliens from killing everyone, but still died. I was in a weird limbo stare till he was done. Then.. I felt like I was in a changeling role playing game and wanted to see about changing kiths. To one that dealt with ghosts.

Saturday, February 28, 2015

dreams and sundry.

     I'm not sure if there is anyone reading this at this point, but I thought I might try to write before sleeping regularly again.  Really that's about a conversation I had tonight in which I decided I wanted to make an effort to remember, and maybe even have lucid dreams again.  I don't really remember having full on lucid dreams, but two people at dinner tonight were talking about how they have them and how awesome they were.  The main  step seems to be remember dreams. . and talking about them and "engaging in them" which means really the first step is to work on remembering them more often.  When I write before bed I tend to remember my dreams more.  Also I think it helps let go of thoughts that might make it harder to sleep.

     So I'm tired and don't want to be up too much longer but I'll write a bit about how today went and then crash.  I started the day around 10,  Made myself some eggs, and did the dishes while Billy went to get his hair cut.    Then I took a shower and was there when he got home. I put on some music while I got dressed and shaved and tried to figure out if there was anything I needed to do before our appointment at 1:00pm

     At 1, we went to Coey's house to meet her Realtor.  We started really looking into possibly buying a house about 2 weeks ago, and I met with a mortgage person for a pre-approval consultation.   For the longest time I didn't  think I'd be able to afford a house, thought it would lock me down to this town for too long (though I've been here for almost 15 years since graduation), and I had it in my head that one generally buys a house either if they are rich, or when they get married.  That last part wasn't necessarily logical.  Anyway, I realize now is as good as a time as most others, and while there have been no proposals as of yet, I know I'd like to buy a house with Billy.  

     I was getting a bit tangent ed there, but back to the day:  The meeting went well, it was very informative. I should be getting my pre-approval letter for the mortgage next week, and then we can *really* start to look.  It did go a bit longer than expected though.  We left Coey's at about 20 till 4 and drove to Bloomington in order to have dinner with Jenna and her friends at a nice Restaurant called Baxters.I really liked it. It's a bit pricey, but it was nice.  We paid for Jenna's dinner and had good conversation in general.  I really like Jenna's friends.  It was during desert that two of them were talking about Lucid dreams.

     After dinner most of us went back to Jenna's place to play Telestrations (awesome telephone/drawing game), but that was after Eric's surprise for Jenna.  We played a quiz to see how well we knew Jenna on a web site called  The site is pretty awesome and talking about how it could be used in education made Eric and I realize we had a few more things in common as far as school goes.  Billy won the quiz and Eric and Angie had a $5 gift card for the winner.   yay.

     Then we played Telestrations for 2 rounds which got us to about 10ish.  Billy and I decided we were going to brave the snow to get home to our little kitteh and it was a bit  of a stressful drive home.  I kept watching my navigation app to count down the miles.  Billy drove.. . and I kinda wish I'd driven and or we'd stayed at Jenna's till the plows had come through.  Natalie would have been o.k. till we got here tomorrow.  Billy was in a terrible "enraged" mood when we got home.  I was just glad we made it safe and it wasn't past midnight when we got here.

     And now I'm writing this and heading to bed.  The Kitteh is curled up next to me in the cat bed and I'll carry her into the bedroom to see if she'll stay with us. :)  If I remember my dreams in the morning, I'll post about it here.  

     One last thing, if you read this . . feel free to say hi.  I'm curious if anyone will catch this after this much time since my last post.  Have fun. :)

--- Gryphon