Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Nook vs. Kindle

So I think I might have been convinced to want an e-book reader.  I looked at a Nook yesterday and I have a kind of prejudice against the Kindle based on them apparently being able to delete your books and refund you money without your permission.  I was also originally thinking of  just reading books on my new phone that I won't have till Oct.  But I think I can now see some definite uses for an actual non back lit book reader. 

Any thoughts on what the best e-book reader is?  Anyone want to buy me one? :)

Friday, June 25, 2010

Bryan's Birthday Camping trip

So, I'll be inviting a lot of people and I wanted to use Wave to discuss and arrange the camping trip. And trying to be aware that not everyone will have it (though it is easy to get) I thought I'd let people see the wave even if they don't have it yet. If you want to give input about the trip and or let me know if you can go or not, please either respond in the wave, or in the comments on here or e-mail me directly. If you write somewhere not in the wave I'll probably add in the information manually to the wave when I see it.

so, the camping wave:

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Thursday, June 24, 2010

bit of dream and ongoing "alone" experiment

So in the dream I had this morning my hair was falling out.  I *think* that's a classic sign of something.

Also the cutting down on constant connections to people seems to be going o.k. as far as I can judge.  It's just occurred to me that maybe blogging about what I've been doing will help me focus more on the things I do by myself and appreciate them more.

Last night was pretty nice.  I cancelled my changeling game again for the, I think, 2nd time ever.  Colleen wasn't feeling well and another person was going to be really late while a third was rushing at the usual late speed.  I still chatted with Caryn for a while on skype and finally tested the multi video skype thing with Caryn and my sister.  The rest of the night was spent by myself and well.  I read more Imajica and finally filed all of the crap sitting on the wooden filing cabinet.  In fact pretty much everything is now in the metal black cabinet.  The wooden one has a little storage that I may or may not need.  I put my t.v. up on Craigslist last night as well and already have a response.  I'm asking for $15 when originally I was thinking $25 just because I wasn't sure how the market on craigslist was and I saw another t.v. without a dvd player being sold for $8.  I probably should have scanned for more T.V.s but oh well.  I literally only use the t.v. to put my computer monitor on sometimes. 

I did enjoy relaxing on my own last night.  It's funny that the only time I'm ever really without constant connections to people is when I'm on vacation or visiting friends or camping.  So it felt like vacation a little bit.  Tonight I need to get my camping stuff ready, and maybe if the T.V. gets picked up I'll sell more things soon.  Maybe I'll take a walk or do something else just for me.  

Also I think people don't completely understand why I'm trying to make myself (at least for now) less connected to people.  That's o.k.  Some of their suggestions are still useful.  It probably wouldn't hurt if I made more time, more evenings at least, that were just for me and not connected to anyone else.  Also maybe I'll try and cut back on other regularly scheduled activities to make it more likely this thing happens :)  I also need to worry less about the expectations of others and their feelings in general. (not that I don't care at all. . just not to base my decisions on "what others think" as much).  It's one of those things that I hold as an ideal but do not ad hear to as much as I want. :)

Anyway, less sitting on IMs at work probably means more blogging. . but we'll see.

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

getting comfortable with being with myself alone

So I'm feeling like writing but also trying to avoid seeking attention and overmuch interaction with others. I'm trying to practice being alone and getting over my deep rooted and somewhat buried fears of being alone. I'm trying immersion therapy. .I'm finding ways to cut back (not cut out entirely) on the constant interaction and attention various IMs and FB etc. have given me. I am still getting txts, e-mail, and phone calls of course, and I'm not totally avoiding people, but I feel I'm making some (possibly temporary) significant changes in how much I reach out and try and see myself reflected in the people around me.

It's a process. . Step 1: cut back on the electronic accessibility. Step 2: practice specifically doing things, especially things I'd previously avoided doing alone, by myself. This includes going to the movies, maybe going to cafe's, or bars, or just walking/reading/etc. all alone in order to be by myself.

step 3: ??profit?? we'll see. Part of why I plan things obsessively is so that I can ensure I have people around. I will prove to myself that I don't need to always have people around. Planning also makes things happen the way I want it to. . so I'm not going to stop. . but :) I can be by myself and be happy. . really. or I will be able to :)

Comments are turned off so I can focus on writing this, explaining to whoever may read it, but not worry about interacting and communicating. Later I might start a blog Wave about it to discuss the experience.

see ya

Saturday, June 19, 2010


just had a dream that I was at my parents house, and so was mike and daniel and stephanie and her husband adam. In the first part of the dream I started crying because someone was pregnant and I was thinking of names for their child, and I was talking to someone about, maybe mike, and I was crying because I started thinking about gone or lost characters from Dr. who and wanting the kid to be named after them.

later adam and stephanie had gone out to buy something for someone as a present and they had had a fight. everyone went to the front porch to help them carry in their large box and find out what happed. Mostly adam didn't like the things that Stephanie thought were neat, and in particular, these two necklaces that looked neat, but probably were not real stones or anything.

Friday, June 18, 2010

blog it wave test (test 2)

did that work?

blog it test 1

first checking if this works.

Monday, June 14, 2010

tent and weekend

So I got a new 6 man coleman dome tent over the weekend. Early b-day present. Spent a lot less money than thought they were going to spend also. I think it will be good. Got it at Dicks's. :) also am getting a hammock but the one we were wanting wasn't available so had to get a raincheck.

Also Saw Susical. pretty good show--at the Muni outdoor theater in Springfield.

Friday, June 11, 2010

Working on the career that actually fits my passions

So, I'm looking for advice on refining my career ideas and for plotting out the path to get there.

Made a wave. Please join in on the discussion either in comments here or in the wave:

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Neverwhere--on stage in chicago

anyone interested?

Saturday, June 5, 2010

Help me find my Nature/Character/Archetype

Please read what I wrote in the wave below and either comment on this blog or join the discussion in the wave. I am working on an exercise of self discovery and this seems like a neat way to get input and help from other people.

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Religion vs. science-as inspired by comments on FB

This is so people without wave can see the discussion

Climate/Seasons and the Solstices/Equinoxes

Here is another Wave discussion embedded in this blog about Climate/Seasons and how they relate to our Solstice and Equinox dates. Please join the wave discussion.